Getting Real

I said I was going to write a blog post every week. That I was going to be consistent. Then, almost immediately I missed a week.

I usually go into these posts with a general, very vague, idea of what I am going to write about. Today, I have sat here watching the cursor blink at me for almost 5 minutes. Nothing is coming to my mind. I could write about the yamas and niyamas. I could write about the fact that I just finished my 100 hour meditation teacher course. I could write about authenticity and self. All of those are perfectly valid topics.

However, like many of you out there right now, I am exhausted. So, I think, I'm gonna get personal and real with you. In a way, this is about being authentic and true to my self, no that's not a typo.

As mentioned in a previous post, I know I live with anxiety. I do what I can to limit it. Mostly, that means avoiding social media, especially the comments section, and trying to maintain my mindfulness.

I try very very very very hard not to allow others thinking to bother me. I really really do. However, once I go down comment rabbit holes, it gets into my brain and stays there.

Lately, my brain WILL NOT focus. A few weeks ago, I was able to spend an entire day reading. It was glorious! I felt so amazing. So, I figured I would make it routine. However, as soon as I made that decision, I wasn't able to focus on reading again. So many people are having this exact same thing.

I won't pretend to know what exactly is going on with the collective consciousness, but there is clearly something happening. We as human beings are sensing something, I don't know what. It is making it hard for us to focus and increasing the collective level of anxiety.

All I can suggest to myself and everyone out there is to breathe. Try to remain in the now. Understand that we are here to be here. Trust me, I know this isn't easy. But, try.

Hang in there everyone,

Kris